there's actually a relationship in a manga that kinda shows that i'm thinking
and how far they go to hold back to save things up until they get married
2:07 AM for until they get married
i want to save as many things up for until i'm married
i want to save everything so i can give everything to my wife
i want as many things as possible to be only for one person
because that's what Jesus did
he didn't go mess around
he gave everything from start to finish for us
he didn't spend time to work on building some cabinet for his parents when he started his ministry
2:10 AM he didn't spend time healing his parents into giving them super powers
he was completely self sacrificed for us
completely devoted to God
that's what i have to do be to my wife
and i don't want to be able to say
that i did this and that to these ex-gfs
